Lately..

..ive been too busy with uni stuff to post anything, i had assigments and midterms so you guess how busy i was. But also, i havent really been in the mood to post anything, i feel that im going through alot at the moment. The pressure of everything is killing me. A new place, a new start a new everything and im not ready for it. I feel that all i can do is smile on the outside and keep everything to myself. Thats how iv always been, never really expressed how i felt if i was annoyed or anything ill just smile to everyone and pretend nothings wrong but when you do that there comes that day when you cant hold it in anymore and so it shows on you. the thing is no one is used to me being sad and stuff so they just think im being wierd or a baby cuz i got sad of what someone said or something. Madrii its complicated to explain.. No one will get it cuz its wierd and all the people here wont understand a thing.. It kills from the inside bss yalla this is life, iv held it in all this time so i guess ill be okii for everything else to come..

Im going through alot of things right now:

Saddness

Anger, getting mad easily

Being annoyed for no apparent reason

Rudeness, i ignore the ppl around me..

In other words, im really not in the mood for anything. It might not show but its the truth..

bSs inshalla now ill be baq to my normal self but i come to realise that why do i smile when im not actually happy !? lately iv stopped doing that cuz i dont get it anymore. Im just too tired of smiling at the moment, its just one of those days i guess (or couple of days)

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Other news includes my precious little tiger. No one wants me to bring her :( but im still gonna bring her kaifee ill pay for everything and ill make all the calls, no one will stop me....

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"0o ana ele kan fee '6any a7e6ah 3al jare7 yebraa"

P.S sorry if the post doesnt make sense, i just needed to quickly write something down..