3rd day

and still no success..

this morning as i walked out for uni i tried feeding the kittens again but all they would do is scream and try to walk around. its been 3 days and they havent had anything to drink and so they hav no strength and no energy. no im not mean and havent given them milk, its just that they wont drink !! the way they scream even makes me CRY !! i literally started crying a while ago while sitting watching them shout thier heads off.. its soo sad and depressing, at that moment i hated my life !!

well, our nieghbor has alot of cats in his garden and he feeds them so they are used to him, they even know thier feeding times and wait by his door when its time.. i remembered him telling me that one of them was pregnant and so in the morning we called and asked, and he said he might know thier mother.. i feel so guilty and so i want to find thier mother so that she can feed them..

after coming baq from uni and having a rest i went out our baq door which leads to out nieghbors garden and waited to see a cat walk by with sort of a puffy tummy but there wasnt one. they were all normal tiny skinny cats and so no way its the mother.. i took the kittens outside so that maybe if she hears thier screaming she will come but again nothing ! 3ami (our neighbor) came out and told me that a while ago while he was sitting in his tent he saw the pregnant mom with her big belly, barely being able to walk, walk by and 3 days ago he saw her again with no tummy and so he assumed she was the mom. he told us to leave the kittens with him and when he sits in the tent again tonight (he sits every night) he will but the box of kittens outside the tent and so if she walks by again she will see them.. i left the kittens with him, i couldnt walk away my mom had to actually pull me away..

well about 2 hours ago the kittens were sent baq to our house, he said that she didnt come by today and so the kittens are baq with me.. they make me cry cuz now they are screaming more and more but i cant do anything,, i tried to force feed them so they could hav some energy atleast but they wouldnt swallow it. they are 4 males and 1 female, they all clinb over this one tiny one which im guessing is the female and she just sits ther shivering, i can see her body shiver and it made me cry knowing that i cant do anything to help.. i want thier mother, i want someone who can help..

me brother contacted PAW's and so they said they can take them and take care of them and so 2moro morning inshalla were taking them cuz i cant bare seeing them like this, its true iv gotten so used to them and so attached but its for thier own good, i dont them to die here cuz then i know ill feel guilty my whole life..

i know this is wierd, but im very sensitive when it comes to animals, i cant bare seeing them hurt or something, when i see a dead cat on the road i cant help but shed a tear i cant stop it..

anyways ill keep you updated.. i hav a video but i dont know how to upload it so ill leave it for now..

again if anyone can help please let me know, id really appreciate it..

Sorry for the long post..